ACQUAINTED WITH THE NIGHT

A play in one-act

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Maura Campbell

233 Crescent Road, Burlington, VT  05401

802/578-4857, ibsen3000@yahoo.com

CAST

 

MAN

ANGELA, 13, a blind girl

PIANIST

 

 

SETTING

 

A graveyard – somewhere in time

 

 

 

A raised platform upstage left.  Smoke, perhaps, rises around it.  A moon is in the sky; below a graveyard.  A food basket is downstage right.  A knife lies across the top of the basket.

                                                                                                                                    

A PIANIST sits and plays a grand piano.  A haunting tune, the beginning of something…

 

The music throughout is the genesis for the action that unfolds on the stage.  The PIANIST is composer, the story we see is the story the PIANIST is telling.  The other two characters may, at times, sit and play, as well, but the PIANIST is always present… or not.  Perhaps the other two characters, together or one at a time, step out of the story and perhaps the PIANIST enters into it.

 

ANGELA is now there.  She finds the food basket, takes out a loaf of bread and begins to cut it with the knife.

 

MAN enters.  He walks slowly around the graveyard and stands in front of one grave.  He looks down. After a moment he looks up and toward another grave but does not move.  Finally, he does.  He walks over and kneels in front of a grave, puts his hands on the stone and feels it, almost sensuously.

 

ANGELA has sensed him.

                                                                                                                                   

 

Scene 1

 

 

ANGELA

                        I don't know you.   Who is there? (Pause.)  Who can be there?  Father?

 

MAN

                        I am not your father.

 

ANGELA

                        This is my graveyard.

 

MAN 

                        Is it?

 

ANGELA

No one comes here.  Only the watchman at night and the girl who brings the food.

 

MAN

                        I am trespassing?

 

ANGELA

                        This belongs to my family.

 

MAN

                        Oh.

 

ANGELA

                        I'm not afraid of you.

 

MAN

                        You should be.

 

ANGELA

I have dogs.  They will rip you to shreds.  Once they did just that.  The man is buried in the town.  I have only to call them and they will come.  Will you go?

 

MAN

                        I have a purpose here. 

 

ANGELA

Then come in the morning.  I will be asleep and the watchman, too.  I don't care what happens then.

 

MAN

                        I cannot come in the morning.  Besides, it will be too late.

 

ANGELA

                        Too late?  For what, too late?

 

MAN

                        I came here to die tonight.

 

ANGELA

                        Die? Are you very old, then?

 

MAN

                        Very old.

 

ANGELA

                        Then the dogs will make short work of you.

 

MAN

                        You would do that?  Call the dogs?

 

ANGELA

                        Of course.

 

MAN

                        A man should have some say in his manner of death.

 

ANGELA

                        I also carry a gun.  Would that be better?

 

MAN

                        Would it be quicker?

 

ANGELA

                        That depends.  I’m not a very good shot.

 

MAN

                        Better call the dogs, then. 

 

A  pause.  ANGELA thinks about this.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                

ANGELA

                        There are other graveyards. 

 

MAN

                        The moon led me here.  It looks like a good place to die.

 

ANGELA

                        I am sorry, I cannot permit it.  It is reserved for my family.

 

MAN

                        Then I will rest a while and die in the woods. 

 

ANGELA

                        Promise?

 

MAN

                        I do.

 

ANGELA

                        Then you may stay.  But I haven’t forgotten about the dogs.

 

MAN

                        Neither have I.

 

ANGELA

                        They say my father is dead, but I know he just went away.  He is not here in the graveyard.  Look, (she walks over to a stone), this is my grandmother.  (She feels the face.)  She died only two years ago, but I never knew her.  She shut herself up in her room after-

 

MAN

                        After?

 

ANGELA

                        And here is my great-uncle who was hanged.

 

MAN

                        Why hanged?

 

ANGELA

He poisoned his wife and children.  The church buried him with the heretics, but my family dug him up and brought him home.

 

MAN

                        You have a dreadful family.

 

ANGELA

What do you know?  They are my family, that's all.  And I'm the only one left, except my father who went away. 

 

MAN

                        You are strange.   But, of course, you are blind.

 

ANGELA

You said you were old and must die.  At least you came to a graveyard.  But how will you die?  Will your heart stop? 

 

MAN

                        My heart stopped a long time ago.

 

ANGELA

You say that and yet you say nothing.  What do you know of stopped hearts?

 

MAN

                        Why, I-

 

ANGELA

If your heart was stopped you would be cold with death like my mother.  She died as I was born and that is why my father is gone!  He had his wife in the ground and an ugly baby to care for.  What do you know of a heart that is stopped?

 

MAN

                        Your father... left you?

 

ANGELA

                        There is a tradition of that in my family. 

 

MAN

                        And he never came back?

 

ANGELA

                        I wait each night.  Are you sure you are not my father?

 

MAN

                        Your father deserves to be ripped apart by the dogs.

 

ANGELA

No!  I would forgive him!  With his wife in the ground- a man can only endure so much.  So I have been alone.

 

MAN

                        We are all alone.  What is your name?

 

ANGELA

Angela.

 

MAN

Angela.  Angel.

 

ANGELA

                        It is a cruel name. 

 

MAN

                        If you could see the light you would see how cruel life can be. 

 

ANGELA

I live in the darkness.  It is all I know.  I imagine that light must be like wings to fly. 

 

MAN

                        What would you do if you could fly?  If you could see?

 

ANGELA

                        I would look for my father.  I would find him. 

 

MAN

                        But he doesn’t want you.

 

ANGELA

                        I could be his angel.  Hovering.  It would be enough.

 

MAN

                        He left you to die, left you unloved-

 

ANGELA

                        A man can only endure so much-

 

MAN

                        Man acts in his own self-interest.  It is his nature.

 

ANGELA

                        And it is my nature to forgive.

 

MAN

                        What if he does not repent?  Of what value, then, is your forgiveness?

 

ANGELA

                        Forgiveness keeps love alive.

 

MAN

                        Even when hope is gone.

 

She thinks about this for a moment and storms off, arms folded, away from the MAN.  She goes to another grave and sits stubbornly in front of it.

 

MAN

                        You mustn’t be angry.

 

ANGELA

                        I will if I want!

 

MAN

It is bad for the blood.  I felt it was important to point these things out to you.

 

ANGELA

Who asked you?  I come here to wait for my father.  You say you are here to die, well, I find that a  great inconvenience.

 

MAN

                        My death inconveniences you?

 

ANGELA

                        Your… conversation inconveniences me. 

 

MAN

                        Shall we speak of the weather instead?

 

ANGELA(Very angry):

My father’s life is a tragedy.  So I share that tragedy.  I did not choose it, but I accept it.  I can accept it.   On the other hand, I did not choose you and I do not accept you. 

 

MAN

                        It has rained recently.

 

ANGELA

                        Your problems are of no interest to me.  I have problems of my own.

 

MAN

                        The ground is wet, but soon it will be dry.

 

ANGELA

                        You are in my graveyard without permission.

 

MAN

                        Unless, of course, it rains again in the next day or so.

 

ANGELA

                        You are most impolite, too!

 

MAN

                        The problem is the wind.  I’m sorry.  May I remain in your graveyard?

 

ANGELA

                        Wh- what?

 

MAN

I am asking politely since I came without an invitation.  May I remain in     your  graveyard?

 

ANGELA

                        No you may not.  Leave at once.

 

MAN

                        I am trying to be polite.

 

ANGELA

                        You leave me no choice.  It is the dogs for you.

 

She stands up tall.

 

ANGELA

                        Dogs!  (Pause.)  Aren’t you afraid?

 

MAN

                        Very.

 

ANGELA

                        Dogs!

 

MAN

                        Call off your dogs.  I will go.

 

ANGELA

                        You will?

 

MAN

I see I am not welcome.  That will never do.  I thought perhaps you might like some company, someone to talk to.  As I do.  But I was wrong.  Forgive me, since that is your nature. 

 

He walks about six paces and stops.

 

She stands as he sits.  She finds her food basket.  She feels for her knife and begins to cut a piece of fruit.  She puts her head down and makes weeping noises.

 

The MAN walks toward her.  She puts her head up suddenly, sensing him.

 

ANGELA

                        You didn't go.

 

MAN

                        Why are you crying?

 

ANGELA

                        I'm not crying.

 

MAN

                        You look like you're crying.

 

ANGELA

                        Well, I'm not.

 

MAN

                        You sound like you're crying.

 

He kneels down beside her.

 

ANGELA

                        I cannot cry. 

 

She takes his hands and puts them on her face.

 

ANGELA

My nurse told me that when you cry there is water on your face.  That has never happened to me.  Do you cry?

 

MAN

                        I- no.  Once.  Not any more.  Never.

 

ANGELA

                        I don't see the point in it.

 

MAN

                        I think it is a way to feel better.

 

ANGELA

                        Better?

 

MAN

                        When you are hurt. 

 

ANGELA

I think I am not made right.  That is why I cannot cry.  (Pause.)  I thought you had left.

 

MAN

                        It seemed you needed me after all.

 

ANGELA

                        I haven’t… conversed… in a long time.  The fault is mine.  

 

MAN

                        I thought we should speak of important matters.  Since time is short.

 

ANGELA

Perhaps there is room here, after all.  We are not family, but not we have told each other something of ourselves.  That is something, isn’t it?

 

MAN

I'm not your father, but I can be your friend.  Your night friend.  We will talk.  Would you like that?

 

ANGELA

                        Yes.  Even if for just one night.

 

MAN

Let us be open to possibilities.  I think that is what the night is all about, truly.  In the light all of creation spreads before you.  You may interpret it, you may discuss it and have opinions, but there is no denying what you see.  At night the shadows are constantly changing.  What appears too horrible at first may become quite lovely.

 

The MAN moves toward her.  She puts her hands out to him.  First she feels his face, then down his neck and shoulders.

 

ANGELA

                        So this... is what you are like.

 

He moves away from her.

 

ANGELA

                        What?  Where are you?

 

MAN

                        I do not want to hurt you.

 

ANGELA

                        Thank you.

 

MAN

                        Was that your music?  It reminds me of something.

 

ANGELA

My nurse played many wonderful things.  One day I sat down at the piano and found that I could do it, too. 

 

MAN

                        Who lives with you?

 

ANGELA

No one.  Once there was my nurse and my grandmother who would not come down the stairs. 

 

MAN

                        Who has cared for you?

 

ANGELA

                        Why, God!

 

The MAN laughs.

 

MAN

                        You are a mystery.  No past, therefore no future.

 

ANGELA

                        What is future?

 

MAN

                        Something that belongs to the living. 

 

ANGELA

                        I don't understand you.  But will you touch me again?  Please?

 

MAN

                        I’d better not.

 

ANGELA

Is it because I am so ugly?  Is that why?

 

MAN

                        No.  That is not why.

 

There is a moment of silence between them. 

 

ANGELA

                        Does it hurt you even to be near me?

 

MAN

                        It hurts me very much.

 

She moves away a bit.

 

ANGELA

                        Is that better? 

 

MAN

                        Not really.

 

ANGELA

You said you would not hurt me, but I am hurting you.  Can only one person hurt at a time?

 

MAN

                        I think pain is like love.  It knows no bounds.  Will you play some more? 

 

ANGELA

                        If it pleases you.

 

MAN

                        It does.

 

The curtain opens.  She sits at the piano. 

 

ANGELA

(Playing a bit):

                        The music doesn't mind my ugliness.  I am lucky in that way.

 

MAN

                        No, you're playing a B, it's a B flat there. 

 

ANGELA

                        What is a B flat?

 

MAN

(Moving her finger to the right key)

                        It is there, do you hear that?  (He plays a little.)

 

ANGELA

                        I think it sounded better before.

 

MAN

                        What?

 

ANGELA

You see, the piano is singing about a man who hopes for love.  Like a child hopes for love.  The B flat makes an dull sound there and there is no dullness in the man's heart.  Not yet.

 

MAN

                        How do you know what is in his heart?

 

ANGELA

                        Can't you hear it also?

 

MAN

                        I say it's a B flat!

 

ANGELA

                        But-

 

MAN

(Hitting the key):

                        B flat, B flat, B flat!

 

ANGELA is quiet.

 

ANGELA

Can you explain something to me?  Can you tell me what it means to be ugly?

 

The MAN plays a chord progression.

 

MAN

                        That is beauty.

 

He makes a crashing sound on the piano.

 

MAN

                        That is ugly.

 

ANGELA

                        Oh.  Then I am that.

 

MAN

                        It is late.  Aren't you tired?

 

ANGELA

                        I sleep when the sun is shining.

 

MAN

                        Why?

 

ANGELA

                        I like the night.  It is cool and peaceful. 

 

MAN

                        But the night has many dangers.  Many... secrets.

 

ANGELA

                        When do you sleep?

 

MAN

                        When the sun shines.

 

ANGELA

                        Then we are alike.

 

MAN

In that we are alike.  Play some more.  Play... the B.  Perhaps you are right. The flat is ugly.  (He gets up abruptly and goes downstage.)

 

ANGELA

                        Where are you going?

 

MAN

                        The music makes me forget why I am here.

 

ANGELA

(Follows him):

                        You said you came to die.

 

The MAN stops and stares at nothing.

 

MAN

                        I have not told you the truth. 

 

ANGELA

                        About dying?

 

MAN

                        That part is true.  But we are related.  Distantly.  That is why I came.

 

ANGELA

                        But, it would have been so easy to say so! 

 

MAN

I wanted you to accept me as I am.  A stranger who can also be a friend.  I thought if I told you we were related, you would feel an obligation.  I wanted you to open your heart on your own terms.

 

ANGELA

                        I didn't ever want you to leave.  I thought I should say that.

 

MAN

                        I don't want to hurt you.

 

ANGELA

                        Don't worry.  I cannot cry.

 

MAN

                        There is so much I want to know. 

 

ANGELA

                        Are you my father?

 

MAN

                        We are... cousins, in a way. 

 

ANGELA

                        Cousins?

 

MAN

                        Distant, yes-

 

ANGELA

                        Then you must meet everyone!

 

She takes his hand and runs to the stones.

 

ANGELA

This is my mother, my nurse said she was very beautiful.  (She runs her hand over the face.)  Marguerite, she was Spanish.  Have you been to Spain?  (She excitedly continues.)  My great-grandmother, Sarah, I have long conversations with her. She tells me about the grand parties at the house.  Do you know she married three times?  Was she your mother?  Or your sister?

 

MAN

                        I did not know her.

 

ANGELA

And here are her husbands.  Frederick, he hardly says a word to me, just snorts.  And Abraham, I think he still smokes a pipe, I smell tobacco every once in a while.  And Samuel.  (Whispering.) She loved him the most, but we mustn’t tell the others.   And here... here is Sarah's grandmother.  (The MAN stiffens.)  She died very young.  (He walks away.)  Like my mother, she died in childbirth. 

 

MAN

                        None of this concerns me.

 

ANGELA

                        But surely if we share the same blood-

 

MAN

                        Ah, yes.  That is what concerns me.  Our blood.

 

ANGELA

                        You make no sense! 

 

MAN

In a way I am dead.  Have been dead for a long time.  Do you understand?  My world, what I knew, what I... was... is long past.  I have been alone.  And I cannot die, not as you understand death.

 

ANGELA

                        I don't understand anything.

 

MAN

It is as if I am standing still and the world is rushing past me.  At first, it was as if I had won something.  But do you know what it is to remain the same when everything else changes? 

 

ANGELA

                        I know what it is to be alone.

 

MAN

                        But you haven't hurt anybody.  You couldn't. 

 

ANGELA

                        Have you?

 

The MAN moves away.

 

ANGELA

You are kind, I know you are kind.  No one speaks to me because of my ugliness, but you do.  How could someone like you hurt anybody?

 

MAN

You are not ugly.  Not to my eyes.  But, then, I have seen such terrible things.

 

ANGELA

                        If you could see me in the light-

 

MAN

                        I cannot.

 

ANGELA

                        It is well then.

 

MAN

                        You are sure there is no one else?

 

MAN

                        I have only tonight.  By morning it will be too late.

 

ANGELA

                        For what?

 

MAN

                        To die.

 

ANGELA

                        You say things that don't make sense.

 

MAN

                        It is my anniversary, in a way. 

 

ANGELA

                        You are married?

 

MAN

                        No.  Yes.  No.  It's not that.

 

ANGELA

                        Do you have children?

 

MAN

                        No.  Yes. No.  I had a daughter.  She is dead.

 

ANGELA

                        Dead?  Is she here?

 

The MAN doesn't answer.

 

ANGELA

                        You say we are cousins.

 

MAN

                        How could your father leave you?

 

ANGELA

I told you.  My mother died. 

 

MAN

                        It is unfair.  That one must die so another may live.

 

ANGELA

Who will visit me after I die?  There will be no one left.  The girl who brings my food, she will be gone one day.  When you die, I will visit you every night.  You will have that, at least, for a while. 

 

MAN

                        There is no place for me here.

 

ANGELA

                        You are wrong!  There is one!

 

She rushes over to a stone.

 

ANGELA

David.  It means beloved.  He left when his wife died, also, in childbirth.  And never returned.  But his daughter prepared this place.  She waited a very long time for him to come home.  Longer than I have waited.  I am one of many daughters who have lived in this house. 

 

MAN

                        David's daughter...

 

ANGELA

                        The piano, that was hers.

 

MAN

                        She played also?

 

ANGELA

                        Her father's music.  Our family has a musical gift passed on from David.

 

The music plays again, softly.

ANGELA

                        Sometimes I imagine that the music is calling him home.

 

MAN

                        Who is playing?  I thought you said you were alone here.

 

ANGELA

                        I don't understand.  Maybe you hear the wind.

 

MAN

                        Is it a game?  How could you have known?

 

ANGELA

                        You must be tired and hungry.  I have food.

 

She finds the basket and takes out a loaf of bread.

 

ANGELA

Have as much as you want.  I don't eat very much and tomorrow there will be more.

 

MAN

                        I am not hungry. 

 

The music stops.

 

MAN

                        You were right, it must have been the wind.  Angela, I am

                        growing weaker by the minute.

                                                                                                                                    

ANGELA

                        A doctor cannot help?

 

MAN

                        No, no doctor.  It is not like that.    Tell me more about David.

 

ANGELA

                        His portrait is in the house.  Would you like to see it?

 

MAN

                        No.

 

ANGELA

I have put my hands on it.  His daughter painted it, though she never saw him. She painted him as she wanted him to be, I guess.  Does that make sense?  When I touch it, I feel sadness.  David's sadness, or his daughter's, I am not sure.  (Pause.)  Perhaps my own.

 

MAN

                        What did I feel like to you?

 

ANGELA

                        The same.

 

MAN

                        But we are not the same.

 

The MAN sits quietly.

 

ANGELA

                        Are you there?  You are so quiet.

 

MAN

                        I am still here.

 

ANGELA

When you die I will be lonely.  After a while it will be as if you never have been.

 

MAN

                        That would be good.  That I never had been.

 

ANGELA

                        Are you afraid to die?

 

MAN

There are worse things than death.  No, that is not true.  I wish it were true.  And I have seen much of death.

 

ANGELA

                        In war?  Were you in a war?

 

MAN

                        No.

 

ANGELA

                        You murdered then.

 

MAN

                        Yes.

 

ANGELA

                        Will you murder me?

 

MAN

                        I don't want to.  I have developed a... taste for it, though.

 

He walks toward ANGELA.  He stands very close in front of her.

 

MAN

I didn't expect to find you... like this.  I thought perhaps an old man or woman.  Someone who was bitter, unloved.  Someone who deserved this.

 

ANGELA

                        I don't believe you would hurt me.

 

MAN

                        You are so sweet.  I have come a long way to find you.

 

ANGELA

                        There is something I want.

 

MAN

                        What is that?

 

ANGELA

I want to know what it is to be a woman.  To be loved as a woman. Even in my ugliness, I want to know that.

 

MAN

                        I can only give what is mine to give.

 

ANGELA

                        If you close your eyes, am I easier to bear?

 

MAN

                        If I close me eyes I will see you more clearly.

 

ANGELA

                        Could you love me as a father, then?  Like the daughter who died?

 

MAN

                        I never knew her. 

 

ANGELA

                        But you loved her?

 

MAN

                        No.  I told you.  I can only give what is mine to give.

 

ANGELA

                        I'm confused.  Which one of us is going to die tonight?

 

MAN

                        Both.  If I'm lucky, we will both die.

 

The MAN takes ANGELA in his arms and bites her neck.  She gasps and then grows limp.  Black out.

 

 

Scene 2

 

The lights come up.  The MAN digs a grave by DAVID'S stone.  ANGELA lies asleep.  She stirs.

ANGELA

                        Did I sleep?  Who are you?  Oh.  It's only David.

 

MAN

                        You are dreaming.  Sleep some more.                                                                                                                                                       

ANGELA

                        I don't want to sleep.  I want- I have pain.  What is this pain?

 

MAN

It's a hunger, that's all.  It will grow worse, but then you will eat and be refreshed.

 

ANGELA

                        I seem to be expecting for my father.  Is he coming?

 

MAN

                        Your father, yes.

 

He stops digging.

 

MAN

                        He is coming at last.

 

ANGELA

                        You have news of him?

 

MAN

He has been on a long journey.  He tried to get back to you and couldn't until now. When he arrives, he will explain it all.  Are you feeling better?

 

ANGELA

                        I have never felt like this before.  Have I eaten something bad?

 

MAN

                        You have eaten nothing yet.

 

ANGELA

                        I seem to remember the girl came and left the basket.  I am tired. 

                        I want to go home. 

 

MAN

What will I tell your father when he comes?  That his daughter  was tired and could not wait for him?

 

ANGELA

                        It is too much to expect.

 

MAN

                        He has traveled far to see you.

 

ANGELA

                        I don’t believe he’s coming!

 

MAN

What was that song you were playing before?  About a man who hopes for love.   Like a child hopes for love.  What do you hope for, Angela?                                                                                                                                                   

ANGELA

                        I hope-

 

MAN

                        Yes?

 

ANGELA

                        I have an idea.

 

MAN

                        Yes.

 

ANGELA

That I might see.   When I was first born my nurse said that I saw light.  It was only after my father left that I became blind.

 

MAN

                        You have only to believe, then, and it will be true.

 

ANGELA

                        Believe?

 

MAN

                        I am your father.  Believe that and you will see.

 

ANGELA

But you’ve said you are not!  You said…  I remember you said you came here to die.

 

MAN

You have touched my face.  You have never touched any other man.  Who else should I be but your father?

 

ANGELA

                        But I am still blind.

 

MAN

                        It is your fault.  I have done my part.

 

ANGELA

                        You merely told a lie.

 

MAN

                        I can prove that I am your father.

 

ANGELA

                        How?

 

The curtain opens

 

MAN

                        Take me inside and I will show you.

 

ANGELA

                        I-  What will you do?

 

MAN

                        The music.  Let me show you with the music.

 

They sit at the piano.  The MAN starts to play.

 

MAN

                        Do you recognize this?

 

ANGELA

                        It is… David’s.  It is despair.

 

MAN

He wrote this the night his wife died.  He wants to die, too, but cannot decide how. A rope?  A cliff?  Ah, these are difficult.  They take such courage.  And the night does not give courage, only cowardice.  A way opens for him.  Do you hear it there?  An opportunity.  The minor gives way to the whole tone scale..  He can die and yet still live. Never feel pain again.  What relief!  What hope!  There is a price.  There, the seventh chord.  He must live at night and feed on only what the night offers.  Now, the ninth chord.  He vacillates.  To never feel the sun on his face.  He must learn to love the all the shades of gray and black.  Except there is the moon.  The beautiful pale moon!  When it is full, he comes alive.  Almost a man again, he can almost believe the flowers of morning will open for him, gloriously lit with color.  Do you know what is despair,            Angela?  It is hope held high.  Hope to hold your wife in your arms, hope to watch your daughter grow to womanhood.  And like the moon it comes and like the moon it fades.  That is despair.

 

He stops playing and walks downstage.  She follows.                                                                                                                                                 

ANGELA

                        Somehow I have hurt you and I have waited so long-

 

MAN

                        It should be swift, but it cannot be swift.  I damn you!

 

ANGELA falls on her knees.

 

ANGELA

Tell me what I have done wrong and I will make it right.  I only want to please you.

 

MAN

Your ugliness offends me.  Your smell.  The way you talk and the way you move. Your love is poison. 

ANGELA

                        What can I do? 

 

MAN

You must prove yourself.  You must suffer as I have suffered. 

 

ANGELA

                        How will I do this?

 

MAN

                        Play for us. 

 

She begins to play, then stops.

 

ANGELA

                        I don’t have any music.

 

MAN

What are you feeling?  Ask your hands to play that.  It’s easy.  You are my daughter, you are also David’s daughter, do you understand?  It’s in your family.  It’s a gift passed on by David.

 

ANGELA

                        I don’t know what I’m feeling.  Afraid.

 

MAN

                        That is a beginning.

 

ANGELA

                        Lost.  What I knew, what I thought I knew…

 

MAN

Remember about the night.  What appears too horrible at first may become quiet lovely.

 

ANGELA

                        I am still afraid.

 

MAN

We have spent time together now.  I know a part of you.  Before the night is done, I will know all of you.  And you will know all of me. 

 

ANGELA

                        I seem to remember… you came here to die.

 

MAN

                        Instead I am becoming more and more alive.

 

ANGELA

                        Then you will live?

 

MAN

                        There is a chance.  There is a chance that we can live together.  Forever.

                        How do you feel now?

 

ANGELA

                        Hopeful.

 

The music is full of despair.  

 

MAN

Do you know you are becoming beautiful to me? 

 

He looks closely at her.

 

                        Angela, these are tears on your face.

 

ANGELA

                        Is that bad?

 

MAN

                        Nothing is bad.                                                                                                                                                       

ANGELA

                        I don’t understand how I can cry now that my father has come home.

 

MAN

                        Soon you will see.  Soon you will see all that I see.

 

The MAN bites her neck again.  ANGELA slumps.  The MAN picks her up and carries her to the place where he has dug the grave.

 

He  begins to dig again, and he weakens and drops the shovel.  He picks it back up and begins again, but the same thing happens.  She stirs.

 

ANGELA

                        I had a dream…

 

MAN

                        You have been sick.  The doctor thought you might die.

 

ANGELA

                        And the baby?

 

MAN

                        The nurse is taking care of her.  A girl, we have a beautiful girl.

 

ANGELA

You must write a song about her.  If I should die…

 

MAN

                        It cannot be.

 

ANGELA

                        If I should die…

 

MAN

                        If you die, I’ll kill myself and follow you. 

 

ANGELA

                        God will not permit that.

 

MAN

                        God be damned!  You will not die.

 

ANGELA

                        David?

 

MAN

                        Yes?

 

ANGELA

                        I thought you had left.  David?

 

MAN

                        I am here.  I will always be here.

 

ANGELA

                        You cast a shadow.  Does our daughter cry?

 

MAN

                        She does not cry.

 

ANGELA

                        David?

 

MAN

                        I am here.

ANGELA

                        Where is God?

 

The MAN weeps.   ANGELA gets up and crawls away from him.   Music plays softly.

                       

MAN

                        I am going to die tonight, after all.  I have decided.

 

ANGELA

                        But why?

 

MAN

                        I have lived a long time.  You said there was room here.

 

He begins to dig again.

 

ANGELA

I was alone.  Content and forgiving.  Waiting.  For what? I wondered.  And then you came.  It was not what I expected, it was not what I wanted, but it was something.  And now you say you are going to die.  Well, I say not!  I say you finish what you started. 

 

MAN

That’s just it.  I don’t know.  I don’t know what I’ve started.  I found you waiting, and in such need.  As I was. 

 

ANGELA

                        You promised me sight.

 

MAN

                        I changed my mind.

 

ANGELA

                        So you’re just going to crawl inside that hole and stay there?

 

MAN

                        It seems like a good idea.

 

ANGELA

                        All right then.  Go ahead. 

 

MAN(Still digging)

                        I intend to.

 

He gets inside the hole.

 

ANGELA

                        What’s it like in there?

 

MAN

                        Dark.  There’s no moon.

 

ANGELA

                        I’ll bet it’s cold, too.

 

MAN

                        Can you cover me up?  With the dirt?

 

ANGELA starts to shovel, but in the wrong direction.

 

ANGELA

I should have called the dogs!  That was my first mistake!  They would have ripped you to shreds and saved me this trouble.

 

He has come out of the ground.

 

ANGELA

Furthermore, you came here without an invitation.  And yet I introduced you to my family…  (She begins to cry.)  I thought I had found someone.  But I’m not sure exactly what I’ve lost.

 

The MAN stands behind her.  He puts his arms around her waist.

 

MAN

                        Are you sure you want this?

 

ANGELA

                        You promised me sight.

 

MAN

                        I promised you would see all that I see.

 

He moves her head to place her lips at his neck.  She bites and begins to suck.  Black out.

 

 

Scene III

The MAN sleeps.  ANGELA digs with the shovel.  She stops and shakes him awake.

 

ANGELA

                        Please, wake up.

 

MAN

                        I am awake.

 

ANGELA

                        It is almost morning.  The moon is starting to fade.

 

The MAN opens his eyes and looks at the moon.

 

MAN

                        Ah, well.  That was expected.

 

ANGELA

                        Will you get up?

 

MAN

What if I just lie here until the sun comes up?  I have not seen the morning in a very, very long time.  Just this once.   What harm can it do?

 

ANGELA

                        But… the light will hurt your eyes.  After so long in the dark.

 

MAN

I thought  so, I said so, it is true.  But the fact is that I am not sure anymore.  Maybe it was about someone else, now that I think of it.

 

ANGELA

                        You are joking with me.  Why would you do that now?

 

MAN

I am feeling good.  Very, very good.  Better than I have in a long time.  Good enough to face the morning.

 

ANGELA

What of me?  You said I would see as you see, and I do.  Shades of gray and black, it is most wonderful.  More than I ever hoped for.  Why will you spoil it?  You know I cannot see the light.

 

MAN

Angela.

 

ANGELA

It is too much  to expect!  I waited for you a long time and I am happy with what we have.  Shades of gray and black, why must you spoil all that?

 

MAN

                        You have trusted me this far.

 

ANGELA

                        Stay if you want to.  I am leaving. 

 

MAN

Morning is coming.  Will come.   And you have never seen it. You must become acquainted with the morning.  Then you will not be afraid. I will tell you what you need to know.

 

ANGELA

                        I am not interested.

 

MAN

                        I saw that you were alone and waiting. 

 

ANGELA

                        Please leave. I am asking you nicely.

 

MAN

                        Leave?  But we have passed the night together.  It is over. 

The morning sun is just behind that hill.  In a few minutes the black sky will melt into pink and gray and blue and white.  I had never hoped to see it again. 

 

ANGELA

                        In one night all cannot be changed.

 

MAN

Do you remember when I asked you to believe that you could see?  This is what I wanted for you.  Not the night. The morning.

 

ANGELA

I lied to you.  I see nothing. It was to please you, that was all.  I was afraid that you would leave me, that you would think I wasn’t trying hard enough. 

MAN

                        I saw the way you moved in the moonlight.

 

ANGELA

You saw what you wanted to see.  It is time for me to sleep.  And tonight I will return and wait for my father.

 

MAN

                        He is not coming.

 

ANGELA

                        I could still call the dogs!

 

MAN

                        I am willing to love you.  I am willing to take you away from here.

 

ANGELA

                        You are a murderer.  That much I believe.

 

MAN

                        There are no dogs.  No gun.

 

ANGELA

                        I have a knife.

 

MAN

                        What is a knife in the hands of a blind girl?

 

ANGELA

                        What is light in the eyes of a murderer?

 

MAN

I have killed, yes.  I even killed your father.  He has been gone a long, long time.

 

ANGELA

                        I don’t believe you.

 

MAN

How could I know so much about you?  We passed a night together, your father and I, much as we have.   The night your mother died.

 

ANGELA

                        You killed my father?

 

MAN

Death is so easy.  Living, well, that’s difficult.  He had a choice, your father. I only gave him what he wanted.  So you do belong to me.

 

ANGELA

My father is dead.  Then I am truly alone.  I thought he was out there, thinking of me, at least.

 

MAN

                        We must prepare.

 

ANGELA

                        What is love, then?  What is the use of it? 

 

MAN

                        Close up the graves,                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           ANGELA 

                        Love changes nothing.  

 

MAN

                        Close up the graves.

 

ANGELA

                        You have killed my father.

 

MAN

I have killed the idea of your father.  Close up the graves. 

 

ANGELA begins to fill in the graves with her hands.  He kneels next to her and does the same.  Music plays.

 

MAN

Tomorrow night it might be cloudy, might be clear.  It is of no importance.  Not anymore. The light that guides us will come from our souls, from the memory of day and the expectation that we will see it again.  Hope is the belief in things unseen.  And tonight, no, this morning!  I have hope.

                        Hope enough for both of us.

 

ANGELA

                        Is it morning now?

 

MAN

The moon fades.  But we must take care to exercise our hope like a muscle, or we will not have the strength… 

 

ANGELA

                        And the sun?  Does it rise?

 

MAN

                        The sun rises in the east and sets in the west.

 

ANGELA

                        Tell me when you see it in the sky.

 

MAN

In winter the days are short and cold, but in summer they are long and warm.  This time of year, the mornings are cool, but by midday… 

 

ANGELA

                        There, it is done. 

 

MAN

It takes three hundred and fifty… sixty… fifty-six days…                                                                                                                       

ANGELA finds the basket and takes out the knife.  She walks toward him.

 

MAN

                        Hope is the expectation…

 

ANGELA

It is not so cold suddenly.  The sun, does it rise? 

 

MAN

                        You said we were alone.  I thought I heard someone playing.

ANGELA stands behind the MAN.  The music stops.

 

ANGELA

                        It is only the wind.

 

MAN

                        When you feel the wind on your face…

 

ANGELA

                        Father?

ANGELA brings the knife down and stabs him in the back.  He falls to the floor.

 

MAN

                        You are mistaken…

 

ANGELA backs away, shocked at what she has done.  She backs away, drops the knife.

 

MAN

                        My God, what have I done?

 

ANGELA runs offstage.

 

Black out.

 

 

Scene IV 

 

The lights come up.  It is night.  The MAN sits at the piano and plays.  ANGELA enters with her basket.  She goes to one of the graves and feels it.  She nods to herself, satisfied that she is home.

 

The MAN stops playing for a moment.  He watches  ANGELA.  He resumes playing.                                                                                                                                                     .                                                                     MAN

                        Who is there?

 

ANGELA

                        I am a traveler.

 

MAN

                        A girl comes at night and leaves food.  Is that her basket?

 

ANGELA

                        Yes.  I don’t think she is coming again.  I am weary.  May I rest?

 

MAN

                        This graveyard does not belong to me.  I am only watching it.

 

ANGELA

                        I will not stay long.  There is much to be done before morning.

 

MAN

                        It is all the same to me. 

 

ANGELA

                        Was that you playing before?

 

MAN

                        Yes.

 

ANGELA

                        It reminded me of something.  Can you see the moon tonight?

 

MAN

                        It is there.

 

ANGELA

                        Are you hungry?

 

MAN

                        What?

ANGELA

                        I have food.

 

MAN

The night is cool.  (He continues playing.)  Rest if you must, but it is truly better to keep moving.  The moon offers no warmth.  It’s light is merely a reflection of warmth.  There is no promise in the moonlight.

                                                                                                                                               

ANGELA

                        You said you were watching.  What for?                                                                               

MAN

                        Why, danger.  What else does one watch for?

 

ANGELA

                        Are there bears about?  Lions, perhaps?

 

MAN

                        Fierce creatures, I am watching for fierce creatures.

 

ANGELA

And whom are you protecting in this graveyard?  Everyone seems quite comfortable to me.  Safe from harm.

 

MAN

                        There are fierce, fierce creatures about.

 

ANGELA

(Feeling the headstones as she speaks)

This is a happy group, I can tell.  I have been to other graveyards that were not so happy. 

 

MAN

                        You visit graveyards much, do you?

 

ANGELA

                        I have developed a taste for it. 

 

MAN

A graveyard is a good place to collect your thoughts.  Quiet, usually.  Battles lost, battles won.  It is all the same in a graveyard.  Peaceful.  Quiet.

 

ANGELA

                        Or else the scream is too far under the ground to be heard.

 

MAN

                        You are being fanciful.

 

ANGELA

                        Do you have a name?

 

MAN

                        Yes.   Do you?

 

ANGELA

                        No.

 

MAN

                        Pleased to meet you.

 

ANGELA

                        I wish you would stop playing.

 

MAN

                        It is most interesting.  I can’t seem to.                                                                                                                                      

ANGELA

You just pick up your hands from the keys.  The whole point of being in a graveyard is to find quiet.  You are spoiling that for me.

 

MAN

                        I’m sorry.  I can’t seem to help it.

 

ANGELA

                        There is nothing to it. 

 

She goes to the piano and takes his hands.  She pulls him to standing.

 

ANGELA

The trick is to find something else to do with your hands.  Plant a seed, a seed of an idea. 

 

MAN

                        What do you suggest?

 

ANGELA

Some people carve wooden objects.  Others twist the materials of their shirt cuffs.  Have you tried that?

 

MAN

                        No.

 

She puts his arms around her waist.

 

ANGELA

Whenever you think of playing, you could instead twist the material of your shirt cuff.

 

MAN

                        I’m not sure it would work.

 

ANGELA

                        You could at least try.  Plant the seed.  Think of your shirt cuff.

 

MAN

                        I’m thinking of it.

 

ANGELA

The material is cool and crisp.  Soft, somehow.  You take it between your thumb and your middle finger.

 

MAN

                        Yes.

 

ANGELA

                        Every time you think of playing.

 

MAN

                        I have planted that seed.

 

He puts his mouth to her neck.  She turns away abruptly and feels her way back to the graveyard.

 

ANGELA

                        The trouble with resting is that one gets cold. 

 

She paces back and forth.

 

ANGELA

                        But I can rest my mind.  If you stay quiet.

 

MAN

                        I have learned a new trick.

 

ANGELA

When my mind has rested then I can go on.  But I must remember about the cold.

 

MAN

                        I take my thumb and middle finger…

 

ANGELA

                        A graveyard is a good place to rest because nothing changes. 

 

MAN

                        …and twist.

ANGELA

                        I have come a very long way.

 

MAN

                        To rest?

 

ANGELA

                        To die.

 

MAN

                        Are you very old, then?

 

ANGELA

                        Very.  Suppose I were to die here?  Would that be all right?

 

MAN

                        I’m not sure there is room.  I’m not sure that the family would approve.

 

ANGELA

                        Could you ask them?

 

MAN

                        That would be difficult.  They are all dead.

 

ANGELA

                        Oh.  But then it is easy!  Who is the most recently dead?

 

MAN

                        Why… (He looks at the stones.)  Marguerite, I suppose.  It says here-

 

ANGELA

Marguerite, Marguerite, she is Spanish? Or French?  Or was her mother

                        simply fanciful?

 

MAN

                        I heard once that she was Spanish.

 

ANGELA

Passionate, then.  The Spanish are passionate.  Jealous, too, I suppose. 

 

MAN

                        I wouldn’t know.

 

ANGELA

                        And who is the first?

 

MAN

 

                        First?

 

ANGELA

                        To die.  Who is the first to die?

 

The MAN looks carefully.

 

MAN

                        The oldest stone belongs to David.  But I’m not sure he is here.

 

ANGELA

                        Have you looked?

 

MAN

                        Someone once told me that he is not buried here.

 

ANGELA

                        Then we must look.

 

MAN

                        Look?

 

ANGELA

                        Do you have a shovel?

 

MAN

                        I never carry one.

 

ANGELA

                        I suppose we could dig with out hands.

 

MAN

                        I believe the practice of digging up graves is frowned upon.

 

ANGELA

                        But if there is a good reason…

 

MAN

                        We need permission.

 

ANGELA

                        Whom shall we ask?

 

The MAN considers.

 

MAN

                        I see your point.  Still, I don’t think it is necessary. 

 

ANGELA

                        But if someone said he is not here-

 

MAN

                        It is probably a nasty rumor.

 

ANGELA

Very well. I should like to interview David and Marguerite.  After all, they are the first and the last.

 

MAN

                        How do you plan to accomplish this?

 

ANGELA

                        I’ll need your help.  Do you want to be David or Marguerite? 

 

MAN

                        Excuse me?

 

ANGELA

                        This is a game.  This is a game we are playing.  Who do you want to be?

 

MAN

                        I’m not very good at games.

 

ANGELA

Not good at games?  Was it so long ago that you were a child?  I’ll teach you then.  Who do you want to be?

 

MAN

                        I don’t want to be David.

 

ANGELA

                        Marguerite, then.  You be Marguerite and I’ll interview you.

 

MAN

                        Go ahead.

 

ANGELA

                        You’re not dancing.

 

MAN

                        Dancing?

 

ANGELA

                        She was Spanish.  The Spanish always dance.

 

MAN

                        What if she was French?

ANGELA

                        No, she was Spanish.  I know this for sure now.

 

MAN

                        How?

ANGELA

                        God has told me.  He told me just now.

 

MAN

                        I didn’t hear anything.

                                                                        ANGELA

That is because he whispers.  Can you dance?  (She puts her arms around him and leads him.)   I’ll believe you are Marguerite if you dance with me. 

 

MAN

                        And who are you?

 

ANGELA

                        Why… David.

 

MAN

                        This is a strange dance.

 

ANGELA

                        Close your eyes.  It helps.

 

They close their eyes and dance.  After a moment,  ANGELA breaks off                   

 

ANGELA

I am the oldest member of this cemetery and I have no time for dancing. There is work to be done.

 

MAN

Work?  I am through with work.  I was through with work.  I have not thought of work… (he laughs.)  In a very long time.

 

ANGELA begins to play the piano.

 

MAN

                        Oh, what awful music you play!

 

ANGELA

                        Awful?

 

MAN

                        I have been meaning to tell you.  It’s so… repetitive. 

 

ANGELA

                        I am considered a musical genius.

 

MAN

                        What is that?

 

ANGELA

It is a great thing to be a genius.  Geniuses are always misunderstood.  We cannot be judged like other men, therefore.  And we are not accountable for our actions.

 

MAN

                        What good is it to be a musical genius if you play terrible music?

 

ANGELA

                        It is just that you cannot understand my music.  Can one understand God,                    after all? 

 

MAN

                        Play something livelier.  Play something to make my feet move.

 

ANGELA

I am not in control of my genius.  It is like the wind, unseen, even unpredictable.

 

MAN

I should go back to Spain.  We would never tolerate geniuses there.  Anyone who played music like that would be shot.  You are so gloomy. 

 

ANGELA

                        We are in a graveyard.  And we are dead.

 

MAN

I have never felt so alive!   (He twirls around.)  I will dance to the music that plays inside me.  That is God!

 

ANGELA

                        I understand God.  I just don’t understand you.

 

The MAN bursts into tears.

ANGELA

                        Now what?

 

MAN

I am Spanish, that is all.  It is a cruel joke to be Spanish, always at the mercy of your emotions. 

ANGELA

Do you like this better?  (She plays something sweet, like a lullaby.)  I can learn to please.  I want to.  If it stops you from crying.

 

MAN

                        I am not crying because of your terrible music.

 

ANGELA

                        Then why are you crying?

 

MAN

I am crying for my life, and all its tragedies.  I am crying for the little girl I bore when I died. 

 

ANGELA

                        Surely she had a happy life.

 

MAN

                        I cannot look forward, only back.  There is no way to tell.

 

ANGELA

I have heard of her.  She grew to be a beautiful woman and married for love. Is there any greater happiness than that?

 

MAN

                        And her father?  Did he care for her?

 

ANGELA

                        The best he could. 

 

MAN

                        If I can not look forward, how can you?

 

ANGELA

                        I told you, it is something I heard.  Only a whisper, but it is enough.

 

MAN

                        What would it be like to hold her in my arms?

 

ANGELA

                        Close your eyes.

 

The MAN closes his eyes.  ANGELA puts her arms around him.

 

MAN

                        Tell me why you are here

 

ANGELA

                        I’m sorry.  I’m so sorry.

 

MAN

                        Sorry about what?

 

ANGELA

                        I have done such terrible things.

 

MAN

                        Tell me.

 

ANGELA

                        Why?  It cannot be undone.  And the telling will make it more terrible. 

 

MAN

                        What appears too horrible at first may become quite lovely.

 

ANGELA

                        I have come here to die.

 

MAN

                        My dear, that is not possible. 

 

ANGELA

                        I am becoming weaker by the minute.

 

MAN

                        They say murderers return to the scene of their crime.

 

ANGELA

                        Certainly by morning it will be over.

 

MAN

                        Have you ever killed anyone?  I am watching for a murderer.

 

ANGELA

                        I wouldn’t know anything about a murder.

 

MAN

                        It was a girl.  About your height.  Hair your color.  Have you seen her?

 

ANGELA

                        No.  But, of course, I am blind.

 

MAN

                        Still, it wouldn’t necessarily prevent you from killing.

 

ANGELA

                        It was very long ago?

 

MAN

                        So you do know.

 

ANGELA

I only guessed.  You sound distant, that’s why.  Like someone who happened a long time ago.

 

MAN

That’s because you’re blind.  Distances melt.  No, it was a recent murder.  Some minutes ago.  I have been watching ever since.

 

ANGELA

                        Did he cry out?

 

MAN

                        Who?

 

ANGELA

                        The man who was murdered.

 

MAN

                        How do you know it  was a man?

 

ANGELA

                        I just supposed.  Why would a girl murder a girl? 

 

MAN

                        The question is, why would a girl murder a man?

 

ANGELA

                        Perhaps she was afraid.

 

MAN

                        No, that’s not enough.

 

ANGELA

                        I don’t know.  Was she angry?

 

MAN

                        Anger, that’s closer.

 

ANGELA

                        Self defense.  She killed him in self defense.

 

MAN

But she used a knife.  And stabbed him in the back.  I think, rather, she killed him in cold blood. 

 

ANGELA

                        Have they taken him away already? 

 

MAN

Why should they take him anywhere?  The graveyard is here.  It’s as good a place as any.

 

ANGELA

                        So he is buried.  Not even a funeral.  Well, it’s as he deserved.

 

MAN

                        That’s a cold blooded thing to say.

 

ANGELA

I don’t suppose a girl could kill an innocent man.  Sometimes girls kill innocent children, but never an innocent man.

 

MAN

                        A girl that kills an innocent child could easily kill an innocent man.

 

ANGELA

                        You don’t understand.  There is no such thing as an innocent man.

 

MAN

                        That is your belief.

 

ANGELA

                        That is what I have seen.

 

MAN

                        Beliefs can’t change facts.  And the fact is that a man has been murdered.  And a girl fitting your description has killed him.

 

ANGELA

I am a girl about that height with hair a certain color.  You have not described me.  You know nothing about me.

 

MAN

                        I know you are afraid and angry.  A dangerous combination.

 

ANGELA

Well, I have no knife.  And no need to kill.  So whatever the measure of your guilt, you are safe from me.  Where is his grave?

 

MAN

                        There.

 

ANGELA

                        I’ll sit and mourn for a while. 

 

MAN

                        How nice of you.

 

ANGELA

                        It’ll get me in the right frame of mind for my own death.

 

MAN

                        I’m glad you have this opportunity.

 

ANGELA

Though I don’t suppose anyone will mourn for me.  You’re the only one here and you don’t seem the type.

 

MAN

                        Two deaths in one night.  A bonanza for the graveyard.  A bloody jackpot.

 

ANGELA

Why must you make fun?  Dying is difficult work.  First I’ll rest, then I’ll mourn. Then I’ll die.

 

MAN

                        Are you telling the truth?  About dying?

 

ANGELA

                        It’s not the kind of thing I would make up.

 

MAN

                        You look well enough.

 

ANGELA

I’ll bet that man looked well enough too, a few minutes ago.  Now look where he is.

 

MAN

                        I see what you mean.  Still, no one is coming at you with a knife.

 

ANGELA

                        That’s what he thought.  But, I am going to die.  With or without a knife.

 

MAN

                        Are you very ill?

 

ANGELA

                        Very.

 

MAN

                        Where does it hurt?

 

ANGELA

                        All over.

 

MAN

                        Do you want some water?

 

ANGELA

                        Water would be nice.

 

MAN

                        I can’t leave the graveyard, you see.  I’m watching it.

 

ANGELA

Watching for that murdering girl.  After I’m dead, you could say that I was responsible.  You say I’m the right height.

 

MAN

                        You have a certain color hair.

 

ANGELA

                        Then the watch will be over.  It must be a bore in the graveyard.

 

MAN

                        I rather like it.

 

ANGELA

                        I rather like it, too.

 

MAN

                        Are you still resting?

 

ANGELA

I’ve switched to mourning.  I’d like to conjure up a picture of the dead man, but the problem is that I’m blind. 

 

MAN

                        He looked a bit like you.

 

ANGELA

                        Hair a certain color?

 

MAN

                        Taller, though.  He was taller than you.

 

ANGELA

I only touched a man once.  He was taller, also.  Do you suppose they were related?

 

MAN

                        I don’t know.

 

ANGELA

For all I know I’m the tallest girl in the world.  So probably I’m taller than most men. 

 

MAN

You could be the tallest girl in the world.  Then again, you could be the only girl in the world.

 

ANGELA

                        I hope not.

 

MAN

                        Why?

 

ANGELA

                        That would make me the killer.

 

MAN

                        When you touched this man, what was it like?

 

ANGELA

                        I told you.  I’m not the killer.

 

MAN

                        The man you touched.  The one you told me about.  What was it like?

 

ANGELA

                        It was like anything else. 

 

MAN

                        Did you like it?

 

ANGELA

                        It was so long ago. 

 

MAN

                        But you must remember something about it.

 

ANGELA

                        I was an innocent girl.  And if I killed anyone, it was an innocent child.

 

MAN

                        What does that make you now?

 

ANGELA

                        Close to death.  Thank God.

 

MAN

The problem is that one cannot survive innocence.  It’s a kind of bait.  Attractive.  Like heat.  Heat  goes from where it is to where it is not.  And that other place is cold.  Heat is attracted to cold, in a way.  Innocence is attracted to corruption.

 

ANGELA

                        Can it ever be the other way around.?  That cold is attracted to heat?

 

MAN

                        Let me say that it has never happened.

 

ANGELA

                        But cold can be heated.

 

MAN

The nature of heat, though, is to cool.  The nature of cold is never to warm.  And nature is, after all, what we are talking about.

 

ANGELA

                        Once I touched a man

 

MAN

                        Was he warm?

 

ANGELA

                        I don’t-

 

MAN

                        Was he warm to your touch?

 

ANGELA

                        He was… not very warm.  But it was at night.

 

MAN

                        Of course, the night is that way.  Cold, by nature.  Did he feel like this?

 

He touches her face.

 

ANGELA

                        He felt something like that.  Yes.

 

MAN

                        Cold.  You are cold, too.

 

ANGELA

                        Cold cannot warm cold.  Can it?

 

MAN

                        Let me say that it has never happened.

 

ANGELA

                        It is the fault of the moon.  If only the sun could shine on us.

 

MAN

                        I have seen you before.

 

She touches his face.

 

MAN

                        Maybe you only remind me of someone.

 

ANGELA

                        Did she feel like this?

 

MAN

                        Yes.  No.  She was warm.  But then she went away.

                       

ANGELA

                        I went away once.  It was most exciting. 

 

MAN

                        Tell me.

 

ANGELA

                        I wanted to see something of the world.

 

MAN

                        Even though you are blind?

 

ANGELA

It’s a manner of speaking.  A metaphor.  When you have lived in the world, you sometimes speak in metaphors.  You begin to interpret life, rather than merely living it.

 

MAN

                        Interpret, you say?

 

ANGELA

That’s what gives all life its meaning.  What is the meaning of life, you begin to wonder? So you think of metaphors. 

 

MAN

                        What is the meaning of life?

 

ANGELA

                        It’s a difficult thing to explain.  Even with metaphors.

 

MAN

                        Try.

 

ANGELA

All right.  Life, the meaning of life… Take this graveyard, for example.  It is a place of death, but it symbolizes life.

 

MAN

                        How’s that?

 

ANGELA

                        Well, all these people were once alive.

 

MAN

                        Yes?

 

ANGELA

So even though everyone is dead, you can only think of them when they were alive. 

 

MAN

Let me see if I understand you.  The graveyard is a place of death.  And yet it symbolizes life because all these people were once alive.

 

ANGELA

                        Yes.

 

MAN

That’s quite obvious.  I don’t mean to be rude, but that’s obvious.  Isn’t a metaphor supposed to be more… subtle? 

 

ANGELA

                        I haven’t lived in the world very long.  I expect I’ll get better at metaphors.

 

MAN

Except that you are about to die.  Did you meet many people?  When you were out in the world?

 

ANGELA

                        Many, yes.  I met many people.  One in particular.

 

MAN

                        Who?

 

ANGELA

My father.  I met my father.  I hadn’t seen him in many years.  We had a nice, long talk.

 

MAN

                        You say you hadn’t seen him in many years?

 

ANGELA

He left on business and couldn’t make it back.  The business took all his attention.  Though he wrote often.

 

MAN

                        The letters were a comfort, I hope.

 

ANGELA

Of course, I couldn’t read them.  So the only thing left to do was to go and find him.  It turned out that he was ill.  Very ill.  I nursed him, but he died.  Unfortunately, I caught his illness.  It was a risk I took, that I was glad to take.  So here I am.  Dying.

 

MAN

                        You’re sure this man was your father?

 

ANGELA

                        There could be no mistake.

 

MAN

Because a man was here looking for his daughter.  Not long before you came. 

 

ANGELA

                        Here?

 

MAN

He was very anxious to find her.  It had been many years, he said.  He was very anxious, but I sent him on his way.

 

ANGELA

                        How… how long?

 

MAN

It’s practically an epidemic of missing fathers, wouldn’t you say?  He wanted to wait, but I encouraged him to keep searching. 

 

ANGELA

                        Then I must find him!

 

The MAN moves away from her.

 

MAN

                        It was only a few minutes ago. 

 

ANGELA

                        Father!  Father!

 

MAN

                        But you said your father was dead.

 

ANGELA

                        I-

 

MAN

                        Is he dead or not?

 

ANGELA

                        He’s…

 

Music begins to play very softly.

 

MAN

                        Is there something…?

 

ANGELA

                        I can’t catch him.  Try as I might, I can’t catch him. Can I?

 

MAN

                        Catch who?

 

ANGELA

                        And you know that.  You could have stopped him, could have told him. 

 

MAN

                        I don’t follow.

 

ANGELA

A man looking for his daughter in a graveyard, that’s no accident, is it?  You knew I would come, knew I’d have to come.

 

MAN

                        I was watching for a murderer.

 

ANGELA

                        Is it too late?  Is it truly too late?

 

MAN

                        Not if you run. 

 

ANGELA

                        But he’s ahead of me.  And I don’t  know the way.

 

MAN

                        I don’t think he knows the way either.  So that is where you will find him.

 

ANGELA

                        It’s something…

 

MAN

You should never have left him.  That’s the real problem, isn’t it?  He was sick, dying even, and you left him.  Worse, tried to kill him.  Listen to me.  There is no crime here.  You began with an expectation and  took certain steps.  And all that followed was necessary.  But you can’t make order out of disorder.  You can only follow disorder to its conclusion. 

 

ANGELA

                        And then what?  Once you have done this?

 

MAN

You will find him again.  And in that moment it will be as if all of this never happened.  You don’t have to look for him,  He will find you.  Be patient.  Stay at your post.  Watch for him.                                                                                                                       

ANGELA

                        You called me  Angela.

 

MAN

                        It was the wind.

 

ANGELA

                        I am the murderer.

 

MAN

                        I know. 

 

ANGELA

                        I was happy once.  Hopeful.

 

MAN

                        Even realized hopes are a disappointment.  There is nothing so pure as

                        expectation.

 

ANGELA

                        Perhaps… only God cannot disappoint.

 

MAN

                        Perhaps… only God cannot care.

 

ANGELA looks older, suddenly.

 

ANGELA

So I will spend my last night understanding that I am alone.  That I have  alone.

 

MAN

                        This is not your last night.

 

ANGELA

Oh, but it is.  I told you.  I have the same illness that my father has.  Had.  A disorder of the blood, I think it’s called.  And you said, what was it?  That order cannot follow disorder.  We can only follow it to its natural conclusion.

 

MAN

                        I was speaking metaphorically.

 

ANGELA

                        My death is no metaphor.

 

The music stops.

 

MAN

You have a choice.  Like your father.  Like… David.  That is the trick that God plays.  To live is to live in fear of death.  So you create distractions.  Or other realities.  Games. 

 

ANGELA

We must all die.  Why play any game?  Why not hasten the inevitable?  It is over in a wink of an eye and all this struggle, all this pain, for what?

 

MAN

                        Yes, that is what I have thought.

 

ANGELA

I waited for my father, but truly, I only waited for death.  My father was a distraction.  That is all.

 

MAN

                        Your wisdom makes you beautiful.

 

ANGELA

                        I hope to die.  I cannot wait to die.  Before the moon fades, I will be dead.

 

MAN

                        Death is life.

 

ANGELA

                        More tricks!

                                                                                                                       

MAN

Imagine a world with no attachment, no… expectation.  No disappointment!  Such freedom.  God has no place in this world.  And no power.  It is ours, yours and mine, to create or destroy as we will.  Because even our creations are of no consequence.  Nothing can interfere.  Not even God.

ANGELA

                        I want to believe you.

 

MAN

The moon appears and the moon fades.  It means nothing!  What appears too horrible at first can become-

 

ANGELA

                        -quite lovely.  Yes. 

MAN

                        It’s what we make of it.  Together.                                                                                                                                                  

ANGELA

I have waited so long.  And it means nothing.

 

MAN

                        That is freedom.

 

ANGELA

                        And love?

 

MAN

                        A trick.

 

ANGELA

                        Oh.

 

MAN

                        The moon fades.  We must prepare.

 

ANGELA walks up to him and feels his face, then her own.

 

ANGELA

                        I am not so ugly.

 

She walks toward the piano. 

 

MAN

                        What are you doing?

 

ANGELA

                        I was thinking, that is all.

 

MAN

                        But we must prepare.  It is not a good idea.

 

ANGELA

                        I am creating something.  Something that I can then destroy.

 

MAN

                        Still, it is dangerous.

 

ANGELA

God has no power here, remember?  I can do what I want.  I can create something new, something just for us.  I can fill the notes with desire and it has no effect.  See? 

 

MAN

                        It may be too soon, you are not strong.

 

ANGELA

Not strong like you are strong.  No, not this night.  Perhaps by morning.  But by morning it will be too late.

 

MAN

                        You must stop playing.

 

ANGELA

                        Once you told me to play the music that was inside me.                                                                                      

MAN

                        You had no music then.  It didn’t matter.          

 

ANGELA

Oh, we are speaking metaphorically.  I’m getting better at them.  Music is a special way of saying something.  What am I trying to say?

 

MAN

                        You are being cruel.

ANGELA

But that is because I have been shown how to be cruel.  But what is cruel in our world, may actually be a kindness in God’s world.  That would be a great trick, don’t you think? 

 

MAN

                        Angela, the moon- 

 

ANGELA

-orbits the earth and has an effect on the tides.  And on our bodies, some say. The moon has a gravitational pull hardly that of the sun, but nevertheless, it has an effect.

 

MAN

                        The moon fades.  All will be lost unless we prepare.

 

ANGELA

They say the moon remains in the sky, but is outshone by the sun.  Is that correct? 

 

MAN

                        Yes.  Do you see?

 

ANGELA

                        I see.

 

She gets up abruptly, finally.  The MAN is almost out of breath from dread.  She walks downstage and looks at the sky.

ANGELA

I think I know how David felt.  That because he couldn’t live without his wife, he couldn’t possibly live with his daughter.  She would be a constant reminder of death.

 

MAN

                        A man can only bear so much.

 

ANGELA

Do you think it worked?  Do you think David stopped thinking about his wife?

 

MAN

                        There were distractions.

                       

ANGELA

                        They say she was very beautiful -

 

MAN

                        Don’t!

 

ANGELA

                        They say her name was-

 

MAN

                        Aah!

 

He hides his face.

ANGELA

                        I am named for her.

 

MAN

                        I cannot stop thinking of her.

 

ANGELA

                        I love you.

 

The MAN sobs.                                                                                                                                                     

ANGELA

                        In my confusion I believed that my thoughts were my life.

 

MAN

                        Please, help me!

 

The light comes up slowly.

 

ANGELA

                        I’m dying.  It’s all I can do.

 

MAN

                        If you die, I’ll kill myself and follow you. 

 

ANGELA

                        Fevers can only burn so long. 

 

ANGELA

                        David?

 

MAN

                        Yes?

 

ANGELA

                        I thought you had left.  David?

 

MAN

                        I am here.  I will always be here.

 

ANGELA

 

                        Does our daughter cry?

 

MAN

                        Yes, finally, she cries.

                                                                                                                 

The music plays.  He cradles her.

 

MAN

                        You are shivering, you are cold.

 

ANGELA

                        That is the trouble with resting.  If I could just rest my mind.

 

MAN

                        It’s the wind, the wind won’t stop.

 

ANGELA

                        When you feel wind on your face-

 

The light comes up some more.  The MAN is terrified.

 

MAN

                        I have to leave, have to… get you some water.

 

ANGELA

                        Yes.

 

MAN

Oh, Angela.                                                                                                                                                     

ANGELA

                        It’s all right.  This night will pass.  And tomorrow we will talk about it.

 

He kisses ANGELA on the forehead, a slow, painful kiss.  He gets up with a great effort and begins to walk offstage.

 

ANGELA

                        David.

 

He turns.

 

MAN

                        Yes.

 

ANGELA

                        It’s God’s trick.  God’s greatest trick.

 

MAN

                        Death?

 

ANGELA

                        No.  Love.

 

The lights increase some more.  The MAN continues to look at ANGELA.  The lights become suddenly blinding..  He staggers toward  her and throws himself down, as if to shield her from the light.

                                                                                                                                         

The lights swirl and explode.  Then they come down again. The stage is empty except for the graveyard.  Music plays softly.

 

BLACK OUT.  THE END